20 Days Till Heaven…Day 18 – Day Visit, Hold You Tonight, and Tell Him It’s OK

November 2, 2017 Michael Weese Comments 0 Comment

20 Days Till Heaven…Day 18 -Day Visit, Hold You Tonight, and Tell Him It’s OK

Memories from November 2nd, 2016 – Day 18

Today would turn out to be a good day for Kate given the circumstances. Still slightly tired from not being able to sleep well. She did have some pains that were increasing at times, but she was sticking to her medicines to help with that. I also remember the day as I typed it above, as the day that Kate and her sister lost their Mother and her Dad lost his wife, Kelly. On this day last year, it was 3 years ago.

The first thing that I have from this morning is just a message letting her know that I can’t wait to hear from her. I didn’t want to call in case she was still sleeping from her medicine.

We had a lot of calls saved from today, which is a good thing as far as having memories this close to the end goes. I know it’s a lot of them added in today, but I feel as if they should be added in to paint the whole picture of the day as accurate as possible.

We 1st spoke when she woke up and she let me know that she actually got up with no headache from trying some of her medicine, which was nice to hear.

Here is an audio clip of that call.

She let me know that she had some visitors coming to spend the day that she went to high school with from when she lived in Pennsylvania. One was flying in from another state. I had told her that Regan needed to be up early for student counsel, but she said that she already knew that and my mother was there to help.

On the same call her tone changed a bit and she started to cry a little bit, she was saying that she missed me and was in pain. I told her that I missed her just as much. I asked her what was wrong all of the sudden, she just said that she was having some pain. I told her to wait until I was home to try to go downstairs and that I would carry her down. I would call home to let someone know to grab her a drink and some breakfast.

As I was getting off of work, I called her back again this time to check in. She said that she was just laying around and tired, but not too tired. I told her that I was off and on my way home. I made sure again to tell her to wait for me before moving downstairs, she said OK and that she was getting ready to do a nebulizer treatment.

Here is an audio clip of that call.

She called me right back, we were talking about drinks. Realizing that we were down to her last Ginger-ale I insisted that I would stop and grab some more on my way home. The Ginger-ale had become her “go to” drink because it helped calm her stomach at times when she felt nauseous.

Here is an audio clip of that call.

We spoke one more time before I arrived home. She told me that she had gone downstairs and was sitting with my mother and the boys. I told her to a couple of times to wait for me to help, but I am glad she made it safe. She told me that she did her breathing treatment and asked me to also pick up some caffeine free Dr. Pepper if I hadn’t stopped already.

Here is an audio clip of that call.

Around this time Kate’s friends Stephanie and Kelly had arrived. They spent some time together catching up on things in our main floor living room. I am sure the boys were part of the action as well. If my memory serves me correctly, they leave after a little while to grab a bite to eat while Kate and the boys took their nap.

After nap and after her friends had come back we all eventually made our way down to the basement. Her friends had a bunch a goodies for the boys. They played with a bunch of toys and some other things. I remember thinking it was awesome to see the boys having some genuine fun given how hectic things had been.

I think they ended up leaving close to dinner time. It was a good visit for her and also nice to see Kate out of bed for a little while.

After I took her back up to rest in bed she sent me a picture of her smiling. Of course I told her she was still so fine. 🙂

Not too much later she would call me while I was downstairs with the boys for a couple of hours until their bedtime. I let her know that I sent her the pictures from the day and asked her if she had fun today. I told her that I couldn’t wait to hold her tonight.

Here is an audio clip of that call.

I have one more story for this day. So when I went upstairs I poked my head into the bedroom and told her that I was just checking in on her. As I went to turn away and go back down with the boys she stopped me. She said, “I am ready to go, I think God may not be taking me because you haven’t told him that it is OK to take me.”

I replied, “I’m not sure if it works like that, but if it does, your right, I’m not telling Him that.”

I added while laughing, “I’m not telling Him that it’s OK until you finish writing in those cards that we bought.”

She rolled her eyes and smiled and I went back down with the boys. If you’ve been following along you know the cards that I am talking about.

Now what happened next is probably when I finally knew to the depths of my soul that she really was ready to go. All those times of her saying, “I am ready to go” was real at this moment. I went to take the boys up for bed an hour or so later. We walked in to say goodnight, and I’ll be damned if she wasn’t sitting on the bed finishing each and every one of those cards. I told her that I was just picking and joking when I said that earlier. She insisted that they needed to be done anyway.

We put the cards away in their spot behind the recliner and then held each other. We talked for a little bit, we prayed, she took her medicines and we tried to catch a little bit of sleep.

She wasn’t able to sleep much because even sleeping at an incline was not working as well as it once did. She would cross her legs, put some pillows on her lap and lay her head down forward on it. It was definitely awkward looking, but she said that it worked. It allowed her to breath and not cough as much. She didn’t sleep a lot that night, but we got as much rest as we could.

Even though things were getting harder at times she never stopped displaying her grace, courage, and beauty.

-Mindset Matters

Day 1 – I’LL TRY NOT TO SCARE YOU AND YELLOW CHEESE

Day 2 – DO YOU KISS ME, CO-PAYS, PINTEREST, AND SCANS

Day 3 – I GET TO BE HAPPY NOW, THIS IS A POSITIVE THING

Day 4 – SHARE THE NEWS, HAPPY DWARF, AND PEOPLE ARE AWESOME

Day 5 – FIELD TRIP, DELICIOUS FLOWER BOUQUET, AND LAST PICTURE

Day 6 – DISNEY SMELLS, NURSE, AND SLEEPOVER

Day 7 – CONFESSIONS, CARDS AND JOURNALS

Day 8 – PIGGYBACKS, CHEER SUPPORT, VISITS, AND ITALIAN WEDDING SOUP

Day 9 – SPREADING GERMS, CINNAMON TOAST, AND LILLY PULITZER

Day 10 – IF YOU HAVE A BAD DAY…PRAY